Still Wonder How

I said something wrong.
Didn't mean it, you know.
But now you're full of woe

And I

Can't help you now.
I'm sorry you're feeling bad,
But this world is still
Turning without your
Bright, smiling face.

But I

Still wonder how
You're not acting really mad;
Took a happy pill
And now it's like you're
Finally in place.

But I

Still wonder how
I possibly feel this sad.
You tell me to chill.
You talk to me more.
And I try to retrace

How this had happened,
What I had done.
You're still my best friend,
But we've just begun.

And I try to keep pace

With what I had said
And your reactions;
Puzzling my head
With your distractions.

And I try to move past

All of my mistakes
And my stupid words,
But you laughed, though fake,
So we're both absurd.

And I try to think fast

So I can really,
Truly say what I'm
Feeling so freely
But we're out of time.